In about a week I will probably face the largest change in my life. I will leave the state I have lived in all my life and move into a completely different culture. I will start at a new school in a field that I don’t have a ton of experience in and have no idea what to expect. I will know no one and will be plunged in head first. I also will have to work for a living. Did I mentioned that in a few short months I am getting married? I may be a bit nervous… OK I’m really nervous but, I have seen the glory of God so I’ll be alright.
Have you ever been in a situation like mine? Probably, and if you haven’t then I bet you will be soon. So what do you do when everything seems to be turned completely upside down? You do the most illogical thing imaginable, you fall on your knees. You turn from the dark and unknown and trust the One who will be with you and stay the same. You put your feet on the one solid rock and corner stone in this world. You build your life on the one who will never change and face anything that this world has to through at you.
This past summer has been the beginning of this transition. From Basilea through NYCUP I learned more about God’s power that I ever thought I would. I learned that I have a lot to learn and that there is much that I can’t hope to accomplish on my own. Basilea (InterVaristy’s year end leadership retreat) taught me that I may have grown a lot but I still have a lot to learn looking at the leaders of InterVarsity. NYCUP taught me that I am not capable of handling every situation myself and I need to put myself in God’s capable hands.
This past week has taught me that patience and faith in God is not easy but worth it. Many times we don’t see what God sees… Well we never actually see what God does. So it can be really hard to trust His judgment when He chooses to wait. I saw first hand how God can work and reveal a plan that is even more complete than I thought possible. While I was in Dallas, in two days God supplied an apartment at DTS itself that shouldn’t have been possible. He also revealed an opportunity that would put me in a fairly good financial position that had never occurred to me. Even if He doesn’t choose to operate this way, I learned my lesson. God isn’t going to give me what I think is best, He is going to give me what He thinks is best and that might mean waiting, a long time.
This doesn’t make it any easier honestly. There is so much unknown and so much change but, that is what God’s grace is all about. When everything else is on quick sand, He is the solid rock. The unchangeable one, the corner stone of the Church. If we place our trust and faith in Him then there is nothing that can drag us under.